Yes.. here I am.....
Been awhile... since.... the last time I post something here....
My life now, I don’t know whether I should say it getting worst, flat or just keeps better. My love life sucks, my real job is now, uhm, all I can say is I need a raise, my side jobs keep me living, and me? myself? been to the gym for the last 2 months, try to keep healthy.
Actually, the reason why I go to gym because I want to go to Bali this December. I want to be in better shape. Well, that was my purpose before something ruined it. Well, one the bosses at the office told me that we are going to make a movie, Yeay!!!! but the thing is, they need me to help them...... D’oh.... Since they wanted to start the production next year, i meant early next year, so there will be no Bali for me this December! Goodbye my precious Bali.... So, after they decided on my life like that, hell, why not I work as hell! Yes! Now i have two “other offices”, like this two production house that pay me better than my office. Pay me better in a way, that pay me based on projects, but they do pay me good! Actually, I can quit the office and just work for both of them, but the thing is, I love making movies, and this is my chance to really learn how to make one. Like really being involved in a production. It’s challenging, and this is what I’ve been looking for. So, here I am, been busy like hell, well, not really now, I’m enjoying the life at home, since I’m almost like a month didn’t go back home, and have bitsy tiny time to update you guys about my life.
I have been having fun though with the real job, been to Wamena, Papua. Fantastic place...
Secondly, about the love life... This is the hardest part. I don’t know what happened between us, I’ve tried everything, but it seemed it just won’t work out. I did everything he wanted in a relationship, but now, it’s just.... I don’t know.... got lost, with the love feelings that I have for him.....
This afternoon, two words came out of my mind, bipolar disorder, yes, I’m so afraid that’ll happen again if I loose him, but I have to be strong right? I’m so pathetic and weak....
Well... I don’t know what will happen in the future, all I can do now is only do the best, right?
