hey all!!!

it's been awhile i didn't post anything....yap.. busy busy busy.... busy with my life... busy getting know the future hubby... that if we clicked... and etcetera etcetera.... damn, i really don;t know what to write... these days was messy for me.. well, i've done with the drama "The Dining Room".... and now I went around more with Peter or should I call him datuk maringgi, and yes, I like the Mr. Spikey now.... and yesterday on X'mas, I sms him merry x'mas...and he replied...without questening who i am... and he's the friend of my friend... and yes.. he;s damn handsome...

i'm tired....tired of everything... i got twice nose bleed in 3 days...with many migrains.... am i going to die??? i'm tired... tired using this mask....

difficult questions....

baru aja tutup telpon, abis curhat.... tiba2 pengen nulis blog lagi. kenapa? yap, there's should be a reason why. Karena setelah cerita tentang my arrange marriage dan the arrange guy, dan all the sacrificed things that i've done and will be done, dia cuman nanya tentang satu hal..."Loe itu kangen detail pacaran atau emang bener falling in love?"... damn man!!!! that hurts!!!! seriously, I just want everybody to be happy....

waktu gue bilang "iya" depan my aunt dan his mother, they were really excited about this, and my cousin as well, although she knows that there is one particular guy that I like so much!!!! tapi yah, this guy is soooo unreachable. What should we call him?? Well, he likes Superman and won't call him that....hahahaaa... let's just call him Mr. Spikey S.

Well, there's this Mr. Spikey S that I really really really like, in this holy place. He3x. Many times I just starred at him, and shit! my heart beats fast.....hhahhaaa..it was funny though. Yap, he is unreachable...untill I found out the he is one of my friends' friend...and yes, he is still unreachable. Why? I don't know why, I think I'm still afarid to really love somebody untill I reached the decision that I accepted this matcmaking thing. My mom? She just said, tunggu ampe sidang baru mikir kesana. My dad? Belum tahu kali. Dia baru boleh tahu setelah gue bener2 ketok palu lulus. Hehehehee... If only I could tell Mr. Spikey S that I like him, and give the questions "would like to be my date?", itu mungkin waktu gue udah menjadi gila. karena gue gak mungkin nanya kayak gitu. Dulu mungkin iya, waktu gue masiy ada percaya diri yang menggila. Sekarang? GAK BGT!!! Well, dear Mr. Spikey S, yes, I like you... and it is impossible really expecting you to like me back... Hix.....

Anyway, gotta sleep now.... I love you all guys.... and what do you think about an arrange marriage? Apa pendapat teman2 tentang perjodohan?? GUe kliatan kayak pasrah atau desperate yah? Man, gue baru 23 juga siy... but I'm just afraid to love again....

TwUiNk TwUiNk?!?!?!

maksudnya apa yah?? heuheuuehuhee..... sama nih agak2 gak tahu juga maksud dari judul di atas apa.... hehehhehee....

wah wah wah.... 2 hari bersama Peter... it was nice and fun though.... untungnya aja ada K' Patra, kalau tidak, mungkin akan lebih banyak berdiam2 lagi.... but the nicest thing was, he called me suddenly from his mother cellphone this evening. I was amazed and shocked. Because i really didn't expect that... but wao... :)

i'm tired and everything.... i'm just tired..... and yup, suddenly i just miss him... Peter.... and someone....

about before today....

well well well.... finally I watched a movie with Peter. He was nice and everything was okay, but he's a little bit weird and unfocused. By the way, we watched Zathura in Setiabudi and it was a strange movie.... really wierd..... but funny though. I laughed a lot despite the unusual things happened there. The good thing was, he enjoyed the movue as well. Well, that's a start. Oh, and before we watched the movie, Peter played the games there. It was fun though watching him playing the games because it seemed that he really enjoyed the games. :) anyway, a quite fun day with him although we still didn't talk that much.... :)

how about tuesday?? not much actually happened, because it was a usual day. I rehearsed the drama and some scenec were deleted again because we just heard news that we only going to have one hour for the drama. Wasn't that sucks?!?!?! anyway..yesterday I was offered this great job but I have to make an essay which I did and sent. and i do really hope that I will get the job. Hehehehhee..... what else?? yesterday in the Rotary meeting, we had the Chillean Ambassador to present about Chille. nice countrym good food, and fantastic wines, that was Kalindi said. I think she really loves that country.
Anyway....gotta run!!! love you all!!!