that's it!!!!

you know what.. I'M LEAVING YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not fair for me and not fair for you... Have fun with everything... I deserve better, YOU JERK SON-OF-A-BIATCH GOLD DIGGER USELESS MAN!!!!!

another your story

it's you and another of your lovers..... you @stevebarnabas and her @ayiiueo ......... can't you just stop hurting me??? STOP LYING!!! LEAVE ME!!!! I'M TIRED OF YOU!!!

you're just another liar.... once a liar... will always be a liar... once a cheater.. will always be a cheater... gotta say goodbye to you soon.... soon... i gotta close the book...

Hilang

Kayaknya gw udah sampe titik capek gw deh.... Gw capek sama elo sih. Mungkin loe gak tahu rasanya digantungin, gak menentu, gak jelas.... Gokil yah, 2 tahun gw menyia-nyiakan waktu gw sama loe... 1,5 tahun gw mempercayakan cinta gw ke elo, dan hasilnya, hancur bok... hancur lebur dan gak jelas mau gimana... Loe berubah.. Loe gak mencintai gw lagi seperti loe dulu mencintai gw... Gw pun udah berubah sekarang, menjadi lebih membenci loe dan kayaknya gw mempertahankan loe karena gw udah terlanjur sayang sama keluarga loe dan keluarga gw terlanjur sayang sama loe. Emang harusnya gw dengerin kata-kata eyang waktu itu, masih bisa nyari yang lain khan? Disaat gw mati-matian mempertahankan loe depan eyang gw, eh jadinya malah begini. Iyah, gw menyia-nyiakan waktu gw sama loe... Gw udah masuk 30 nih, dan loe 31, tapi gak jelas begini. Mending gw tinggalin loe aja deh pelan-pelan... Membiasakan diri tanpa loe....

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Slowly but sure... yes, I'm going to leave you.... I have to.... I can managed my life well, before i met you.... I have to leave you.....

New Adventures!

Yes! The New Adventures Await!! Really can't stop thinking about it!

One thing now...

Should I include you in my life again?

Another monolog of mine

Me: Why?
Heart & Mind: We didn't know what it was coming...
Me: WHY????
Heart & Mind: We're sorry...
Me: I HATE MY LIFE!!!!
Heart & Mind:..... no one's to blame
Me: He's no sun of mine!!!! He's just another asshole.... He's juts another man who hurt me...
Heart & Mind: .........
Me: Shit happens... Shit happened....
Heart & Mind: What do you want to do?
Me: I want to hate him, he doesn't deserve to be happy... not at all... I want him to feel miserable... To feel what I feel.... To cry until he doesn't have anymore tears....
Heart: Are you sure?
Mind: DO IT!
Me: AAARRRRGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Heart: forgive him...
Me: NO! NEVER!!!! Whenever I forgive someone, it ended with I'm the one whose hurt! NEVER!
Mind: then don't forgive him...
Me: ............................ i wanna die......
Heart: Don't...
Mind: .................
Me: I don't know anymore whom to trust
Heart: God..
MInd: bullshit...
Me:.......... let me go, God, from this love... it kills me.... it kills me....
Heart & Mind:..........

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I'm back


I'm back and I'm here to stay...
I'm here and I will not move again...
I'm staying here because I need to stay here...
This is where I supposed to be....

I'm back because our story has ended....
It ended when you put your heart to another woman..
Yes, it killed me and still killing me slowly..
I hate you from the deepest of my heart
I want to scream at you and saying things

You don't deserve to be happy....
You never did make me happy....

So here I am....

......... I'm back.... alone....