difficult questions....

baru aja tutup telpon, abis curhat.... tiba2 pengen nulis blog lagi. kenapa? yap, there's should be a reason why. Karena setelah cerita tentang my arrange marriage dan the arrange guy, dan all the sacrificed things that i've done and will be done, dia cuman nanya tentang satu hal..."Loe itu kangen detail pacaran atau emang bener falling in love?"... damn man!!!! that hurts!!!! seriously, I just want everybody to be happy....

waktu gue bilang "iya" depan my aunt dan his mother, they were really excited about this, and my cousin as well, although she knows that there is one particular guy that I like so much!!!! tapi yah, this guy is soooo unreachable. What should we call him?? Well, he likes Superman and won't call him that....hahahaaa... let's just call him Mr. Spikey S.

Well, there's this Mr. Spikey S that I really really really like, in this holy place. He3x. Many times I just starred at him, and shit! my heart beats fast.....hhahhaaa..it was funny though. Yap, he is unreachable...untill I found out the he is one of my friends' friend...and yes, he is still unreachable. Why? I don't know why, I think I'm still afarid to really love somebody untill I reached the decision that I accepted this matcmaking thing. My mom? She just said, tunggu ampe sidang baru mikir kesana. My dad? Belum tahu kali. Dia baru boleh tahu setelah gue bener2 ketok palu lulus. Hehehehee... If only I could tell Mr. Spikey S that I like him, and give the questions "would like to be my date?", itu mungkin waktu gue udah menjadi gila. karena gue gak mungkin nanya kayak gitu. Dulu mungkin iya, waktu gue masiy ada percaya diri yang menggila. Sekarang? GAK BGT!!! Well, dear Mr. Spikey S, yes, I like you... and it is impossible really expecting you to like me back... Hix.....

Anyway, gotta sleep now.... I love you all guys.... and what do you think about an arrange marriage? Apa pendapat teman2 tentang perjodohan?? GUe kliatan kayak pasrah atau desperate yah? Man, gue baru 23 juga siy... but I'm just afraid to love again....