Bingung dengan Hati

Lagi bingung nih, bingung banget... Biasalah masalah hati. Tapi bingungnya seru banget, secara yang dibingungin juga seru banget sih. Hak3!!!

Yang bikin bingung itu bisa bikin gue ketawa banget, senyum-senyum sendiri, aduh.... sampe senyum-senyum gak penting gitu deh. Hak3!!!

Udah akh, gue jadi bingung sendiri mau nulis apaan. Soalnya emang lagi bingung dan senang juga!! Senang sampai suka senyum-senyum itu loh!!! Hak3!!!

Ahhh.. di kantor nih sabtu-sabtu begini, jadi rindu sama dia nih....

Breathless


I want to feel like this again.... is it near to feel this again?
Last time I had this feeling was with the right person with the wrong time and place...

Breathless - Shayne Ward

If our love was a fairy tale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we’d say I do

And if we had babies they would look like you
It’d be so beautiful if that came true
You don’t even know how very special you are

Chorus

You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless

And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How I’m thankful for the life we’ve made

And if we had babies they would have your eyes
I would fall deeper watching you give life
You don’t even know how very special you are

Back to chorus

You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You’re like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You’re something special
I only hope that I’ll one day deserve what you’ve given me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life

Back to Chorus (2x)

Breathless
Breathless

My Almost Perfect Sunday

Pagi-pagi jam 8 udah berangkat ke gereja, di pikiran gue, gereja pagi mulai jam 8.... sepanjang perjalanan udah ngebut ke arah Wisma Staco... Pas nyampe, sempet bingung, koq sepi sekali????? cek and ricek... ternyata gereja jam pertama mulai jam 9.... wakakakkak!! jadilah gue nunggu 30 menit di dalam kedinginan di ruangan ibadah...

band pengiring lagi latihan... and yeah seperti biasalah, agak-agak liat kiri dan kanan, dan yang bikin gue kaget, kenapa tiba-tiba gue ngeliat si Hendra, bassisnya, kenapa jadi keren begitu yah? Bhuwakakkakkk!!! Dia emang keren sih, tapi entah kenapa gue ngeliatnya jadi beberapa kali lipatnya kerennya.. hak3!!!! setelah rehersal, dia sempet turun panggung.. trus pas mau balik ke panggung, kirain gue bakal dicuekin as usual, ternyata disapa... :P... hak3!! udah akh ntar dikira gue GR lagi... we'll see next Sunday aja gimana :P

Abis gereja, berhubung, gak sama sepupu-sepupu (K Pat and K Ega), so I intended to go to Ambass afterwards buat ngambil titipan nyokap.... Nunggu lift sendirian... turun ke lobby... pas mau turun lagi ke B1, ada suara memanggil... ternyata sepupu gue si K Ega... tumben benerrr.... dan arahnya juga sama... ke Ambass... Hak3!!!! Kocak pisan... maap yah K Pat, bukan bermaksud meninggalkan dirimu di rumah, tapi gak sengaja ketemu dengan K Ega..

Lalu bertolaklah kami ke Ambassador, agak curiga kenapa sepi banget.... Aseli sepi banget! Pas mau parkir, ditanya.. "Ibu mau ke Gereja? Carrefour?", gue jawab, "Gak Mas, mau ke ITCnya", dengan polosnya tukang parkirnya bilang, "Wah, tutup bu, khan hari besar" Hue??? Serius loe??? Ya sutralah...

Sempet clueless mau kemana, akhirnya memutuskan ke FX aja.. Karena K Ega juga belum pernah ke FX dan gue masih pengen nyoba si Atmosfear keparat itu. Makan di FX, di My Hanoi House... makanan Vietnam gitu deh.... rasanya? snacknya sih enak.... tapi main coursenya biasa ajaaaaa... kenapaaa bisa begittuu???? entah yah.... tak lama abis makan itu kenapa skait perut?? sungguh aneh sekali!!! hak3!!!

lalu berniat pengen nyoba atmosfear.... tapi gatot!!! Kenapa?? Karena ada segerombolan cheerleaders yang nangkring di masing-masing ujung si Atmosfear itu.. and guess what... some of them were my ex-students in Tarakanita Tendean. Malessszzzzz banget gak sih? Jadi terpaksa gue lewatkanlah rencana gue untuk ber Atmosfear ria.. :P

Kemudian, untung ada ide cadangan.... pijat refleksi!! Karena pijat refleksi andalan kami di Ambas lagi tutup, jadilah ke Grand Wijaya... moga-moga pada buka disitu... dan eng ing eng!!! Buka!!! Yeahh!!! Jadilah kami berdua pengen tidur nyenyak di tempat refleksi... tapi sialnya gue, di telpon mlulu!!! Bt euy!! Gue udah bilang sama yang pengen gue jemput, akan gue jemoutnya itu sekitar jam 5an, bukan jam 5 teng... sekitar jam 5an.... hix hix hix.. jadilah gue tidka bisa menikmati dengan tenang dipijat2nya, padahal gue cuman minta sejam doank.. whuaaaa..... dikit2 liat jam... dikit2 hp bergetar.... sumprit BT!!!!

Setelah nyaris jam 5.30 akhirnya gue sms, gue akan menjemput dia sekarang... Laalluuuuuuuuuuu, di balesnya adalah, akhirnya si oknum memutuskan memakai taksi karena takut gue kelamaan.... sial!!!! bt!!! Untungnya sama K Ega ditawarin apakah mau totok wajah? Saya langsung mau!!! Jadilah saya pertama kalinya, muka saya dimacem-macemin.... Soalnya gue gak pernah facial bok, dan ini totok wajah...Enak tenan!! Enak abess!!!! Gue tidur dengan sangat nyenyak!!! Sukses bgt!! Hape langsung gue singkirkan sebelum pijat memijat dimulai... :P

Setelah itu ke Plasa Semanggi deh.. belanja makan malam, dan makan malam di tempat K Ega.... Hie3x.... Seru euy...

What's for next Sunday yah? :P

Seek to?

Curhatan Post nih...

Semalam, gue nangis.... karena:

1. i'm scared loosing faith in Him
2. gue masin mencintai dia yang seharusnya udah bisa gue relain untuk menjadi milik orang lain..
3. the problem at my home isn't getting better..
4. i need my best friends...
5. tired... really tired...

itu aja sih.... dan pagi ini bangun kesiangan....

How Gay Are You?

Very interersting isn't it? Yap, I attended Q Film Festival Musical Operrete: "How Gay Are You?". There were the Rat Pack from Rush Hour, and there were this lady, Sarah something I forgot, and she sang so beautifully, and the a jazz guitar player and pianist whom I forgot totally their names and the girl who will launch her new album too. :P

The show was amazing! We laughed the whole night... Well, it wasn't that kind of show, it was more like LGBTQ 101.... yeah, sort of like that..

The Rat Pack: Mimi, Uncle JC and Lily "Moon Cake"

Me, Gadsya, Meinar, Tuhu, and Niki my high school friend watched the show together. I met Micha and his friends, Paul Agusta and friends too... and some people that know me and I was like totally forgot where did I meet them or how they know me.. Gosh, I'm really sorry.. My SMS (Short memory Syndrom) is really getting worst.

The leason learnt from last night is, actually being gay or not it's just the same. There are disadvantages and advantages being one or not... And who we are judging people supposed not to be gay or lesbian? If I were a lesbian, will you jugde me like I didn't belong in this world like you all? Well, that's not the point actually... The point is, gay and lesbian are not a disease... It's just the matter of heart, habbit, and the "below" part... LOL for the last part...

Last night show wasn't offending everyone, that was the thing I amazed. The show was divided into 3 Acts, 1. Am I Gay?, 2. I am NOT Gay. 3. Queer Job's... And yes, the almost 1 1/2 hour show was very amazing for me and for the rest of the gank.

I intend to watch more today, it's free anyway, but it depends though on the boss' sched.. He said he wants me to come along with him to a meeting.

This is the 1st Act, Am I Gay?
There were Mimi and 3 little sexy darlings... Well, they were not in the show actually.. Lol...
Mimi's figure was amazing.... Don't you agree?






Second Act, performed by Uncle JC and Mimi
This is I'm NOT Gay
So hillarious and I just couldn't stop laughing...






Last Act, The Queer Job's..
This was VERY Interesting indeed... 5 people were invited to volunteer on stage... and yes, it was so fun seeing the last part... :)

And US!!! :)

Anyone care to accompany me watching the some movies??
Futher details, please click www.qfilmfestival.com

living single!

bhuwakakakakaakkk!!!! gue gak tahu mau ngasih judul apaan abisnya, pokoknya sih dari semalem itu gue udah ngekost juga akhirnya. Berasa banget sih sendirinya. Hue3x... Secara dulu ngekostnya itu khan bareng sang sepupu, jadi sekarang benar-benar sendiri aja gitu...

jam 8 lewat nyampe kost bersama bunda habis belanja dari carrefour... lalu jam 9 nyokap pulang, kemudian yah... nyapu, ngepel, berusaha membuat speaker radio nyala dengan kable-kabel yang gue beli. Yeay! Nyala! Senangnya.... :)

jam 11 malam, mandi.... :P guess what, gue lupa bawa kaos dan daster kesayangan... hak3!!!! yah moga-moga nyokap ngebawain deh ntar :P hue3x... dan kamar gue itu mayan dingin ternyata, walaupun kipas angin hasil rampasan dari rumah itu udah gue arahin ke atas juga, masih dingin juga. Tadi pagi bangun pun dingin.... wah, enak sekali.... :)

setelah hampir setahun di rumah.... gue ngekost lagi... bertahan berapa lama yah gue ngekost ini? hue3x... demi karir nih.... :P hie3x...