the future?? the dream??

lately i've been wondering....and wondering.... what kind of job later i will get after i graduated.... man, all those plans i've made suddenly just like.. -PUFF- gone into the air... and these days, my friends are getting married!!!! that scares me a lot man!!! since i think i'm going to get married... if i got the blessing..... well, it's an arrange married anyway, and i'm going to be Letitsia Nurbaya then... hahahahahaaa.... well, japanese do believe that an arrange marriage will last long rather than usual marriage. because they believe that parents know best for the children. do they? sometime i just want to be me.. i choose what i want to be with, but for today.. it's kinda difficult.... huhuhuhuuhuhu..

this morning i had a stupid dream... in my dream, there was a giant snake, like anaconda, and it became my pet!!!! eeeuuuwwwwwhhh..... and then i think it supposed to eat 7 people only, and i guess i'm the last one, but when it only had 6 people i woke up.... i wonder....really wonder... what's that supposed to mean.... well, i told that to my friend, and he said it has something to do with the soul mate.... and then i said.... waooo.. is it?? is it my marriage?? oohhh... i'm getting confused...

well, anyway, forget that stupid dream... i gotta go now.... my friend, michael, he's having his wedding reception today in mulia, so realllt gotta go..... still love you all!!!

akhirnya.... finally..

really don't know what to write after some weeks didn't write anything.... secara gue juga lagi pusink2 gak penting gitu dehh.... let's re-call this week...shall we??

uhm... what did i do?? i went to campus, and i attended the classes, all 3 classes...and then i went to gonz to meet pak him, to help me with my thesis...and then i met sr. anne, and she said next thursday is the revision day of my thesis....wow man... and what else?? oh, i practiced and rehearsed for the campus' drama...tittled "The Dining Room"... well, the drama only uses 6 people; 3 actors and 3 actresses.... and 1 person get the least is 6 characters, and the most is 10..... curios about the play? come at 17 december in atma then, buy the ticket, and then you see me...hhehehehheheeee...

what else??? well, not much...at least i know that i probably will have an arrange marriage after D-day of my thesis... Lord help me please.... an arrange marriage?? yeah, with a guy whp basicly is secured with everything..... and 9 years older than me... what can i ask more?? i really don't know about that, i've met him twice...and everybody said...love can grow later.... well, i'm still hoping that Mr. W is reachable...he's the guy in my church, he is handsome and I like him... but I'm so afraid to talk to him, because we don't know each other....well, sort of like that..... because whenever he's around i just keep quite..... silly huh??!?!! that's me.... hehehe.....

uhm...uhm...uhm.....btw, i miss you all my dear friend, sorry i've been busy.... i'm not a very good friend lately, do i?? :) love you all!!!!

saturday morning .....till afternoon....

Suddenly everybody is matchmakers?!?!?! and one of my brother's x girl also becomes ms. macthmaker for me. she insists so much that i have to meet one of her relatives, and i did...

not to mention one of my aunts is also trying to get me hooked up with her friend's son, Peter...

slow down everybody... I still to get to know them really slowly...like slowwlleeyyy... hehehehee..

anyway today i was late fot teaching, and my students were good in the quiz.. i was so happy..

but the part that made me not really happy that there was no drama rehearsal....huhuuhuuh.. i just waisted my time went to campus then... huhuhuhuhuhu....

*yawning* i think i'm so sleepy..well, gotta sleep a little bit.. gotta a small reunion my old friends :) hehehehee......

companionship ?!?!?!?!

MIDNITE ALREADY!!!! and my head spinning like hell!!!! Keqkeqkeqkeq.... ain't suppose to say like that.. heheheeee.... anyway, entah kenapa satu hari makes me really think.... like really thinking man.....

tadi gue nonton film *waduh jreng jreng, gue lupa* sesuatu gitu deh, dan disebut2 companionship... damn, setelah diingat2 udah 7 bulan gue menjomblo gila2an.... dan gue takut untuk memulai lagi.... yap!!! walaupun gue suka orang kayak gila juga, tapi gue tetep jaga jarak.... abis2an man... dan i just realized that i really need a companionship.... a steady relationship because i', tired of everything!!! starting from Mr. TB that likes to say bull-shit stuffs, Mr. Log In who really enjoyed taking advantages on me, Mr. Body Builder who really underline the "friend" word but keep doing "tha thing" to me, and who else?? Oh.. Mr. D who misses me always but I lost the feeling for him. Uhm.. and there's Mr. Motmot who is unreachable for me, because I only know his name and his face, but we never really talked face to face.... he's a very popular guy in that place, man! Who again yah?? Well, I really don't know, but it seems that I'm still scared. Scared of what?? Of everything!!! Failing on another relationship, and then have to open the new one.. I know I'm still young!!! But can I have just thought of my own without people telling me, "Hey you're still young!". I need someone to rely on, I don't want to play around anymore!!!! Gosh!!! I'm really trying to open my heart, but it's just not right...and this all because of one STUPID IDIOTIC UNMAN WHO DUMPED ME THROUGH SMS BECAUSE OF ANOTHER BITCH!!!!!!! yeahh.. finaly I said it!!! Yeah!!!!! Well, because of you I lost my confidence already..... yeah, you really done it you son of a bitch!!!! I think I swore enough.... man, I have to stop my swearing habbits....

Well, anyway, I stopped smoking......and right now is trying hard to really stop smoking.... hehehheee.... and uhm.... I'm clean now.... and what else.... I think that is all.... for now... dunno if something came up... heheheee...

oh yeah, I watched Chicken Little with my bro and his friend and it was a weird film but funny though.... :)