Wednesday, November 09, 2005

companionship ?!?!?!?!

MIDNITE ALREADY!!!! and my head spinning like hell!!!! Keqkeqkeqkeq.... ain't suppose to say like that.. heheheeee.... anyway, entah kenapa satu hari makes me really think.... like really thinking man.....

tadi gue nonton film *waduh jreng jreng, gue lupa* sesuatu gitu deh, dan disebut2 companionship... damn, setelah diingat2 udah 7 bulan gue menjomblo gila2an.... dan gue takut untuk memulai lagi.... yap!!! walaupun gue suka orang kayak gila juga, tapi gue tetep jaga jarak.... abis2an man... dan i just realized that i really need a companionship.... a steady relationship because i', tired of everything!!! starting from Mr. TB that likes to say bull-shit stuffs, Mr. Log In who really enjoyed taking advantages on me, Mr. Body Builder who really underline the "friend" word but keep doing "tha thing" to me, and who else?? Oh.. Mr. D who misses me always but I lost the feeling for him. Uhm.. and there's Mr. Motmot who is unreachable for me, because I only know his name and his face, but we never really talked face to face.... he's a very popular guy in that place, man! Who again yah?? Well, I really don't know, but it seems that I'm still scared. Scared of what?? Of everything!!! Failing on another relationship, and then have to open the new one.. I know I'm still young!!! But can I have just thought of my own without people telling me, "Hey you're still young!". I need someone to rely on, I don't want to play around anymore!!!! Gosh!!! I'm really trying to open my heart, but it's just not right...and this all because of one
STUPID IDIOTIC UNMAN WHO DUMPED ME THROUGH SMS BECAUSE OF ANOTHER BITCH!!!!!!! yeahh.. finaly I said it!!! Yeah!!!!! Well, because of you I lost my confidence already..... yeah, you really done it you son of a bitch!!!! I think I swore enough.... man, I have to stop my swearing habbits....

Well, anyway, I stopped smoking......and right now is trying hard to really stop smoking.... hehehheee.... and uhm.... I'm clean now.... and what else.... I think that is all.... for now... dunno if something came up... heheheee...

oh yeah, I watched Chicken Little with my bro and his friend and it was a weird film but funny though.... :)

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