Friday, March 09, 2007

Gak mandi tetep cantik? Hehehehe....

rumah lama yang dulu sempet gue tinggalin,, akhirnya gue memutuskan untuk kembali kesini walaupun masih kadang terasa pahitnya, but hey, I have to move on, dan gue menyadari hal itu koq.

topik pembukaan di awal post ini apa yah? mending cerita pengalaman 2 hari di kantor gak pulang, gak mandi *bukan maksud jorok yah, tapi gue ganti pantyshield koq*.

Jadi begini ceritanya bapak-bapak dan ibu-ibu sekalian, khan ceritanya boss M dan Boos R mau pergi ke Hong Kong untuk World Premiere film kita yang paling baru. Ceritanya sih film itu harusnya udah launch bulan ini, tetapi entah karena kesibukan ke-2 boss gue itu akhirnya jadwalnya mundur jauh sekali. Lalu dapet deh undangan ke Hong Kong yang kononnya market jualannya disana lebih tinggi daripada festival2 film di asia pada umumnya. Kemudian meeting dan deadline yang saling mengejar-mengejar terutama dari pihak Hong Kongnya yang kayaknya udah sabar banget nunguin gue yang mundur terus deadlinenya, karena design poster belum jadi. Untung jadi sebelum deadline terakhir *thank You Amy Li*.

Kemudian boss M minta gue menghubungi beberapa orang festivalnya untuk mengatur akomodasi mereka disana. Wah, koq yah semakin kesini semakin banyak tambahan yah, well, let's skip it dan langsung dimana gue gak pulang karena harus nongkrongin komputer dan materi2 promo yang filenya segede apaan tau, udah gitu harus dikirim lwat internet ke hong kong. Yap, disini nih bangian serunya.

Sore hari waktu boss M konfirmasi akan bikin publikasi khusus di Hong Kong sana, gue langsung telpon festivalnya donk, ngobrol deh sama Ms. M, dan email-emailan sama Ms. F, ternyata publikasi disana udah tutup dan kalau kita mau nyerahin materi promo deadlinenya itu tanggal 9 (BO! itu hari ini!). Otak mikir keras banget, secara itu tanggal 8, gimana caranya yah file2 segede itu nyampe tanpa di"corrupt", selain itu juga ada penambahan2 yang gue gak tahu mesti ngerjainnya gimana karena gue gak bisa pake freehand!! *ada yang bisa ngajarin?*

Thank you very very much buat oknum B yang RELA datang dari Gading ke kantor gue yang indah ini di selatan, ujan-ujanan, demi ngerjain dan nambahin kata2 yang 3 baris doank. Mana harusnya gue yang traktir, malah dia yang nraktir! Ntar gue traktir loe yak boss, mau di Sushi Groove aja gak? Hahahaha! Thank you juga buat kekasih hatiku yang udah mau nemenin gue dari jam 6 sore ampe jam 6 pagi gak tidur, ikutan melototin komputer. I love you too very much hun!

The good news are filenya "nyampe" di Hong Kong dengan baik... fiuh.... Sekarang tinggal nunggu jadwal flight yang harusnya sih dibook dari pihak festivalnya. Tapi entah yah, gue cukup bingung dengan pihak Hong Kongnya. Btw Thx Ms. Mandi Ng for letting me send the letters on Moday. I owe you a big one. Well, that's a wrap for today!

Friday, February 09, 2007

loosing it

i don't really get it now. I'm loosing it. I'm loosing my confidence and my comfort....
I'm lost.. I need help, though I have a boyfriend, but still I realized that sumthin' is missing... and I don't know what is that....

Monday, January 15, 2007

my friend's wedding day

Yesterday was a chaoz for me....not that chaoz... But... Oh... Well, actually everything I planned was ruined.... As usual, because I miscalculated the time, Dugh! So stupid!

So, yesterday I had 2 wedding invitations, both are my ex-teacher-mates in CLC. Neneg held her partu in the afternoon, and the other one, Eny, held hers in the evening. But in the morning, I supposed to attaned this movie premiere with my man. The movie was "Blood Diamond", starred by Leonardo Do Caprio as Danny Archer and Djimon Hounsou as Solomon Vandy.... and the story goes...

In the morning, I called my cousin whether she wanted me to drop her at my other cousin's place before me and my man went to EX. So around 8.25 am, we went... Fisrt, I picked up my man near his house, (I love you!..:P), then went to my other cousin's place to drop my cousin. Afterwards me and my man went to EX. Not forgetting I aslo broght my blouse which I thought that I would use that to attend Neneng's weeding day. We arrived at EX around 10am, and straight to the theater.... met some friends.... and around 10.15am the studio opened and 10.30, the movie started. Here was my mistakes. I thought the film would be finished around 12... damn, it was finished almost 12.30.... and not forgetting meeting some friends (again), and it made me think, I couldn't go to the weeding because it would be verrrryyy late.... so, I decided not to go... So sorry Neneng, I know I promised you to go, but really sorry.....

My Mom already reminded me to go home fast because yesterday was my bother's birthday.... "Hey bro, happy 20th birthday!". ... but guess what... mom, dad, and bro went out for lunc, just there of them! Oh.. poor me... hixhixhix.... Enuff of that! I met again with my cousins..... and bla bla bla bla.... we went home!

I miss my bed time so much so I decided yesterdat to sleep again while waiting for my mom to get back from curch before I go to my last party... I mean my friend's wedding.... GOSH! Guess again..... no... I did go there.... but sssooooo late... luckily everybody still there.... :)..... and I got some pictures too!!



this is eny and her beloved husband...



windy and the adorable Dhika.... he has anggi's face for sure



my ex-teachers-mate.... miss you guys... really looking forward to meet you guys again :)... love you all!



i really do miss you.... we used to have good times together.... remember Shaggy's concert?? :)...
I miss those times....



Monday, January 08, 2007

That's IT!

SHIT! I had it! I had enough of you!
I respected you, woman! Because he used to love you and I'm still feeling guilty about that!
I never mentioned your name or even your e-mail!!!!! But you just did something that was so hurting me!
I never called you bitch, but you did! I defended you in front him, because he didn't want to see you again!
You never knew what I did for you! I tried so many times to convinced him to get back to you!
But it's his choice not to! So don't mess with me, girl! But you did! So, here I go...

You biatch! What you wrote in your sms to me was so bullshit! You twisted the fact that you're the one who's not there for him! You're the one who abandoned him! I told you several fucking times, that I didn't know about you from the beginning! And I did break up with that stupid boy becayse he made my pocket empty!!! read the blog carefully biatch! or should I read it for you?
Here... I put it here!

[Yup, I'm in love with a guy that I really feel can complete mylife.....
Not long after I met him, I decided to end my relationship with my boyfriend.
Because I don't want to hurt him longer and also have a boyfriend like that really empty my pocket....]
dated Wednesday, September 27, 2006

Now can you read that?

So what if he's happy with me now? Jealous because you couldn't make him happy? That's your problem!
I love him the way he is and I never demand anything for him except for his honesty...
I always listened to what he wants to say and try no to be so selfish like what you did to him!
I never complaintabout his past, like you did!
I never compared him to another guy, like you did!
I always trust him, but you didn't!

I was really offended of your sayings in your blog: [so horny and can't stay single?]
what's up with you, biatch? You and your own judgement...... I can't belive you could say something like that..

As I said before... I respected you and I know you hate me... But I never called you BITCH!!! And why did you have to do that? and why did you have to put my e-mail address in your blog? You expected somebody will e-mail me to go fug me? Damn bitch! I respected your privacy and I never, not even once, try to make fun of you!
But you just did it... you just ruined that respect and privacy....

So, Vira or Vla, vlara_croft@yahoo.com, or whoever you are.... Try to see again what had happened in the past with you two before you start to blame everybody? By the way, he did show up to your house, remember? Or it was his spirit that went there? DUGH!
That's IT!

SHIT! I had it! I had enough of you!
I respected you, woman! Because he used to love you and I'm still feeling guilty about that!
I never mentioned your name or even your e-mail!!!!! But you just did something that was so hurting me!
I never called you bitch, but you did! I defended you in front him, because he didn't want to see you again!
You never knew what I did for you! I tried so many times to convinced him to get back to you!
But it's his choice not to! So don't mess with me, girl! But you did! So, here I go...

You biatch! What you wrote in your sms to me was so bullshit! You twisted the fact that you're the one who's not there for him! You're the one who abandoned him! I told you several fucking times, that I didn't know about you from the beginning! And I did break up with that stupid boy becayse he made my pocket empty!!! read the blog carefully biatch! or should I read it for you?
Here... I put it here!

[Yup, I'm in love with a guy that I really feel can complete mylife.....
Not long after I met him, I decided to end my relationship with my boyfriend.
Because I don't want to hurt him longer and also have a boyfriend like that really empty my pocket....]
dated Wednesday, September 27, 2006

Now can you read that?

So what if he's happy with me now? Jealous because you couldn't make him happy? That's your problem!
I love him the way he is and I never demand anything for him except for his honesty...
I always listened to what he wants to say and try no to be so selfish like what you did to him!
I never complaintabout his past, like you did!
I never compared him to another guy, like you did!
I always trust him, but you didn't!

I was really offended of your sayings in your blog: [so horny and can't stay single?]
what's up with you, biatch? You and your own judgement...... I can't belive you could say something like that..

As I said before... I respected you and I know you hate me... But I never called you BITCH!!! And why did you have to do that? and why did you have to put my e-mail address in your blog? You expected somebody will e-mail me to go fug me? Damn bitch! I respected your privacy and I never, not even once, try to make fun of you!
But you just did it... you just ruined that respect and privacy....

So, Vira or Vla, vlara_croft@yahoo.com, or whoever you are.... Try to see again what had happened in the past with you two before you start to blame everybody? By the way, he did show up to your house, remember? Or it was his spirit that went there? DUGH!

Thursday, December 14, 2006

my dear R.A.T

I saw Robin last night
On a small tube
It was so small
Fragile and unshaped
My Robin with him...

I saw Robin with my eyes
With his eyes....
Our Robin...

Suddenly regretness filled me
I cried a lot
I screamed in my heart
I want my Robin....

But I know...
I can't
We can't.....

Forgive me, God
Forgive us...
Our sweet Robin....


Tuesday, November 14, 2006

My Fear

Have you ever in love with someone deeply, and you know deep down inside there's a big possibily that you won't be with him? or her? I guess you all do have......

For another "shit-happens" again..... My karma is haunting again by giving me this one man, which I'm in love tottaly now. I'm in love again.... and this one I'm pretty sure that I can't be with him.... Another sad story about my love life..... The differences between us..... Though I feel all the things I want with him... The happiness that I'm longing to have... All the laughters with him..... and all the tears I keep for him.... Somehow know I realized, that this is too heavy for me... I'm scared to have this relationship... Scared of loosing...but you know that one day you'll loose him....

I don't ask for a perfect person.... I only ask for someone who can understands me and take me as I am.... This man is perfect for me.... He is all I want.... But... there's just "but".... and I gues you all know what is that "but"... We've been through many things... All I want is just happiness with him, but then again we have to fight for it... It's a long way journey...

In the end, if we couldn't be together.... at least I know that I have a wonderful memories with him....