What Goes Around.....

Some say, what goes around comes around while the other says differently....

I just realized that I'm in a quarter or not even close of my life, lol. Oh yes, I'm 25 this year and I enjoyed my life perfectly thought many thing still happened, and those things are the things that I hate the most. I won't say it loud, because I've learnt that I have to keep aware of my surrrounding. No one is actually really there for you except Him.

What has triggered me writing this post? Well, many thing, and why in English? I don't know, the words are easily popped-out when I'm writing in English. Pay attenttion readers, not because I want to show off or something like that, but for those who enjoyed English as much as I do, don't you feel is a lot easier to speak out your mind in English? Well, I do...

The first thing is a news which kinda shocked me. What is the news about? It's about someone's decision to leave the office and move on to a better place, or payment. Well, if it's go down to the payment matter who can argue for that? At this point, it makes me really think, should I go with the other offer or just stay here waiting under the 'big name'? It's 50:50 the chances I'm having right now and the time somehow doesn't allow me to have more time to think and think. Dang! What should I do know? This is the part when I just said 'oh well, we'll see that later'. Well, there aint much time to decide, gurl! Ooohh yyeeeaahhh!!!! and again this is the time when I said 'well, just leave it here then'. (equals to dead end)

Secondly, remember the 'C' guy? Well, I admitted that he was the best thing in my life, until the mother and the girl showed up. At that time, I was always blaming them because of them I had to suffer from the heart broken. Now? I just realized (again???), hey I'm a big girl now! I've proved to everyone I've survived, again with His help. Through C's eyes, I was very much enjoying my life and the wildness in me. He definitely brought out 'something' inside me and no, I didn't regret it at all. The times I had with him should be another experience in my life. The new beginning had begun with the one I love now, though I also admitted this time is also hard. Makes me don't want to married if it keeps going like this. Ha3x!


What is it about the 'C' guys and the girl? Well, they are married already! How supposed I reacted to this? Very natural and calm, and yes, I am. Many things, and yes, many many things had thought me, also not being so selfish about love (well, still a little bit now). Remember the quotes 'when you love somebody, his/her happiness is also your happiness' and also 'when you love someone, you know when is the time to let the person go'? I keep holding on to those quotes untill now, and you won't say it's true if you don't experience situations like that. I did, and I never regret it. It has made me to learn everything, opened my eyes to a whole new level of life and love.

This is a very long post, lol! Probably some of frineds still think that I will get hurt if I heard about the married stuffs, well guys, I'm not. About still love that 'C' guy? Yes, I still do, but just the same amount I have for my friends and Xs. Don't worry guys, I've moved on...

For 'C' and 'N', I'm sorry for what I've said in the past, I really wish you have a great journey together forever and have a great family. I love you guys. :)

Somehow, I'm relieved saying that....
Have great weekend guys!!! It's karaoke time!!!!

Vini Vidi Vici Jakarta

REKOR!! Gue di rumah dari Sabtu malem ampe Senin malem. Bukan liburan, tapi tuntutan nyokap. he3x.. Doi juga rela nganter gue pagi menjelang siang ke kantor.. Thanks mom...

Nyampe di kantor, ternyata gak serame yang gue kira, karena ternyata orang-orang pun belum semua masuk setelah berpetualangan di pulau Kakaban di Kalimantan buat bikin dokumenter. Dari yang gue dengeri ceritanya sih , kayaknya sih hari ini bakalan gak semua masuk, and bener juga. Cuman mas T ama Mas M yang masuk, bt-nya si mas M langsung ngebom pirate gue.. Tapi berhasil saya balas koq.. Mhuahahahahahahaa....

Tadi pas jam-jam makan siang, tiba-tiba nyokap telpon dan bilang kalau sepupu gue pengen nawarin kerjaan ke gue. Nah loh???

Thinking about that, gue langsung teringat dengan salah post temen gue di blognyah dia yang caem banget itu mengenai menaklukan Jakarta. Gimana susahnya kerjaan, dan betapa asiknya kalau bisa side job dan dapet duit di tengah2 bulan yang dimana biasanya orang-orang gak bisa belanja, kita dengan seenaknya keluar dari mall dengan tas/baju/sepatu baru. Bhuwakakakakakakaka... Pernah banget sih gue kayak gitu, waktu side job gue kayaknya meeeennggaaaaalliirrrrr tiada henti, entah kenapa koq beberapa bulan ini side job gue gatot melulu yah? Jangan-jangan ada yang gak rela gue berside job ria lagi??

Hi3x... Emang bener sih saat ini orang lebih berpikir how to make more money daripada ngejar karier, tapi buat gue adalah melakukan side job lebih banyak pengalamannya dan kesempatannya serba double... Ngerti sih, one day I have to choose, tapi seru aja saat ini seseruan untuk ngerjain side job... hew3x...

Menurut my own family sih saat ini what I earned is not as big as they expected kalau gue milih kerjaan yang mereka mau.. Tapi susah juga yah, hati berkata lain begini.... dan saat, gue dalam dilemma yang sangat berat... amat berat... buat naklukin Jakarta, udah half way sih... *sombong* ha3!!!!!! Siapa yang bisa ngukur perjalanan kita kalau bukan kita sendiri? Kalau menurut orang kita belum ada apa2nya menaklukan Jakarta, hey that's from their eyes, kalau menurut gue udah, bug off, man! ha3!!!

Benci banget deh!

Kalau lagi sakit gini saya benci menjadi bukan diri saya, contoh:

1. Pemarah banget jadinya
2. Sangat sangat sensitive
3. Bawaannya manja aja gitu
4. Males ngantor banget!

dan masih banyak lagi rentetan kejadian yang bisa terjadi kalau gue lagi sakit, dan yang kena korban siapa lagi kalau buka pacar saya tercinta itu. Kemarin sakit berat, niat ke kantor jadi diundur jauh banget, soalnya pusing banget. Si pacar niatnya kemarin ke Gading, karena ada kerjaan, jadi gue minta ke kost dulu. Akhirnya yah, gak jadi ke Gading, karena kemanjaan gue yang panjang banget, minta dianter ke kantor, pengan makan berdua sama dia. Untung dia sabar banget jadinya. Ha3x!! Coba kalau pacara saya gak begitu, bisa tersesenguk sendirian nih di kost. ha3x..

Well, alhasil kemaren nyampe kantor jam 3 sore, karena gak kuat jalan jadi dianter ma pacar dan matahari yang sangat tidak bersahabat. Dan menyelesaikan segala hal secepat kilat supaya bisa makan yang melegakan hati, batin, dan pikiran. He3x....

Apalagi yah?? Gak bisa konsen nih... Masih pucink2...

"Dough"!

Kenapa begitu???

Alleerrttt allleerrttttt!!! Insomnia gue kambuh, sekambuh-kambuhnyaaaaa, kayak sekarang yang paling parah.... Hix..

Anyway, pas lagi gak bisa tidur itu, gue sempat menonton sebuah film yang bagus banget, yah at least di jam segitu, yah jadi bagus.... He3x... Judulnya "Life as a House", itu film di rilisnya tahun 2001. Gue baru inget, ternyata gue pernah nonton film itu di salah satu tv berlangganan itu, tapi gak selesai, yah secara insomnisa tralala, akhirnya gue menyelesaikan film itu dengan tuntas, walaupun diselingi dengan nontfon film Mandarin "magic Cop". Yah film tentang hal-hal magis gitu deh, tapi lucu-lucu. Hew3x...

Anyway, back to the Life as A house itu, apa yah?? Filmnya cerita tentang a father yang menyesal karena "kehilangan" anaknya, trus karena dia menyadari hidupnya tinggal beberapa bulan, He wanted to do something, yaitu bikin rumah dan dia pengen anaknya yang laki-laki itu spend the whole summer with him. Ceritanya emang udah ketebak sih kayak gimana, tapi gue saat itu benar-benar mikirin the family relations yang terjadi disitu, yah secara family relations di keluarga gue lagi berantakan juga.. I pray to God a lot to help me on this one...

Quote from this film: "Some events were meant to happen for reasons"...

Anyway, I still need help for my insomnisa... HELP!!!

Together!!! BFF!!

Akhirnya, semua sudah berkumpul!!! I'm so happy!!

Bingung?? Jadi begini, waktu gue kuliah, pas jaman-jamannya lagi sekarat abis ditinggal pacar, sibuk part time di salah satu radio bergengsi di Jakarta, menyelesaikan skripsi dan berlatih drama yang durasinya hampir 2 jam, dialogue Inggris pula, gue menemukan my comfort. Pacar? BUKAN BANGET!!! Orang-orang yang benar-benar mensupport gue dan menyadari bahwa I have something... And those are the things that make me love them. Pas awal kuliah, gue emang dapat teman, tapi entah kenapa, they just friends... Gue gak menemukan the real me... Dan bersama orang-orang yang pada detik-detik terakhir gue di kampus, gue bisa cerita apapun itu dan mereka gak pernah mengadili gue dengan norma-norma yang ada ataupun membanding-bandingkan gue dengan yang lain. We just share stories, bukan juga membangga-banggakan masing-masing pengalaman... yang biasa gue dapatkan dari seseorang itulah..

Beberapa orang yang katanya temen guepun (yang pas awal-awal kuliah), gak pernah bisa ngasih solusi untuk masalah gue dan memandang gue apa adanya.

I fall in love with these people yang akhirnya kita bisa bersama-sama lagi. Kalau bukan karena mereka, mungkin gue gak akan survive tahun terakhir di kampus gue itu. Kalau bukan karena mereka, mungkin gue akan selalu hilang. Dan gue pengen banget ngucapin terima kasih banyak untuk orang-orang itu. Orang-orang yang gue cintai...... Maris, Mike, and Daniel... plus Hanum..

Jumat kemaren, gue akhirnya bertemu dengan mereka, trus kami berkaroke di salah satu tempat Karoke di bilangan Fatmawati. Formasi seperti yang gue bilang tadi, Maris, Mike, Hanum and Daniel, he was late. Ha3!! We had so much fun like we did back in the year 2005. Gosh, I just miss those times... Kita kumpula jam 9.45 and we sang alllll thheeeeyy wwaaayy.... sampe malem lah yawww.... Selesai jam 12 gitu, and we went back home, rencananya sih akan ketemuan lagi untuk ngupi-ngupi. But, belum tahu kapan sih jadwalnya. He3x... Pengen sih ke kampus juga, buat ngeliat apa kabar si kampus, secara pas kita ketemuan, langsung aja ngeggosip apa yang terjadi around campus. Ha3!!!

Si Hanum kerja juga di kampus, jadi at least she knows what had been happening there, dan ternyata semakin buruk. ha3!! Orang-orang yang potensinya gede untuk jadi dosen gak dijadiin dosen, tapi orang-orang gak penting banget bahasa inggrisnya (karena buruk) jadi dosen, karena rajin menjilat "asses"nya dosen-dosen di kampus. GIILLLLAAAAA jadi parah gitu yah kampus gue. Lalu kubu masing-masing dosen pun sekarang jadi keliatan banget. Wakakakakak.... *semakin ngaka jaya*. Entah gue mesti prihatin atau gimana, tapi yah, semakin aneh aja sih itu jurusan gue. Well awnyay guys, thank yah kita udaha ketemuan kemaren ini. WANNA DO IT AGAIN!!!

and seperti Hanum bilang, guys, f.y.i we are B.F.F yahh.... ha3!!!!!!!